The struggles of regular life, are facing me when everything comes together.
There is not a world that in my mind, that describes the feeling.
I feel restless and do not know what the right way is because al the struggles are fighting, so how can I  know which to choose?
I feel the feeling colonizing my mind and it blurs my view, not able to see right.
Only thoughts about what should be right are circling around, instead of what I think that is good for me.
I feel the struggles are living me, life could not feel less free.
I want to run to leave all the wires in my head behind. I want to run to be free from a feeling I can not even describe. But when running is not possible, the only way I can be free seems to be; get everything done, right in time.
At this moment it feels like this feeling is feeding me, I know how people can lose their minds.
Adrenaline is kicking my ass, and my mind is not able to protect its walls.
So now it feels like I am my body after all.

C.